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Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Cherish

It's almost 2am.  I am completely exhausted, but I can't seem to turn off my mind.  I don't know really what I came to my blog for... I can't really seem to form real coherent thoughts.  But I wanted to write none the less.  I'm sitting in my bed with the fan on way too high which is making my eyes burn.  Which is making me more tired.  Does that ever happen to you?  I suppose I could turn the fan off, but that would require me to move.  And I don't feel like it.


Moving on.  haha.  My husband is working very late tonight.  He is currently still at the office working on some real important project.  I miss him so.  He has been working late *a lot* lately.  It's been really hard for me.  I am not clingy by any means, but it's still nice to have him home... sitting by me in the living room, or hearing him breathe as he lays next to me in bed {now.  get your mind out of the gutter. ;) }  Or listening to him with our girls - their squeals of delight as he plays whatever they want him to.  They have even painted his toe nails before.  What a good dad.
When dad isn't home, our family isn't whole.  He is the piece to our unfinished puzzle, and we are dying to complete this puzzle.  But, sometimes life gets crazy and we get busy.  With work.  He works so very hard, and it's such a great quality to have.  But at the same time, I wish him to be home.  Soon.  It's only for a time... RIGHT?!
There is a reason my turnaround time is so long.  There is a reason I keep very strict business hours.  Because I know my husband will need to work late sometimes... or a lot of the time.  I can't just work all the time and have them care for themselves. That would not be fair, they need mom.  So, I am here.  When they need me, or when they don't.  I'm watching.  Because one day... they'll be all grown up, and as a mother, there's nothing worse than missing something.  Every milestone is cherished, remembered, never ever forgotten.
I want my kids to learn a good work ethic from their dad.  Because I don't think there's a better example of that.  My dad would also be a good example of that as well.
I want my kids to learn balance from me.  I don't mean balancing and juggling life and all it's insane activities.  I mean balance as in... there is no harm in walking away for a bit.  For example.  I have set business hours for myself.  And I stop when the time has come.  It will all be there for me tomorrow.


It seems a child's life is fleeting.  Gone in a blink.  And I don't want to miss it for the world.  I look forward to the people they will become, the lives they will lead, the people they will love.  So much ahead, but still so much right here right now.

I know... totally a random post.  Just lots of things on my heart right now.   And the above is just a fraction.  But, I am nodding off as I type this.  Best be going now.  :)  I will be back with a giveaway later in the day.


10 comments:

SoBella Creations said...

I couldn't agree more. People wonder why I won't be sending Sofia who turned 4 this month to pre-k. I tell them once she is gone for 5 days a week for kindergarten we can no longer have our free days together. So I'm just as happy to send her 3 days a week for a few hours each day and have her home with me the rest of the time. I can't get her childhood back. I need to spend as much time as possible with her.

Crystal said...

beautiful and I agree. :) we have a similar life...i only wish everyone had a husband like ours. :)

Kathy said...

I admire you for your dedication to your family! Making the choice to be with your family over your business is choice you'll never regret. You can't get that time back. Keep up the good work!

mandiegirl said...

I think keeping business hours is a great thing!

Needled Mom said...

It sounds as though you have all of your priorities in the right place. Trust me....the children are gone in the blink of an eye.

Carrie said...

Great Post, iut is so true.

Celeste said...

So, so true, Shey. Above all else - you are a wife. a mother.

Taking time to cherish all of the little moments in your girls' lives, spending time with Mike, taking time to enjoy life!!

one thing I always have to remind myself is: "Let go and let God." - I read that somewhere, and it has really stuck with me - because it is so true.

Beki - TheRustedChain said...

Balance is soooo hard to achieve, but so important!

Polka Dot Moon said...

Beki said it!

Hang in there. Seems like a trend lately.

Denissa said...

So, so true...I'm very impressed that you wrote such a beautiful post so late!
Sounds like you have everything in perfect perspective :)