Cherish

It's almost 2am.  I am completely exhausted, but I can't seem to turn off my mind.  I don't know really what I came to my blog for... I can't really seem to form real coherent thoughts.  But I wanted to write none the less.  I'm sitting in my bed with the fan on way too high which is making my eyes burn.  Which is making me more tired.  Does that ever happen to you?  I suppose I could turn the fan off, but that would require me to move.  And I don't feel like it.

Moving on.  haha.  My husband is working very late tonight.  He is currently still at the office working on some real important project.  I miss him so.  He has been working late *a lot* lately.  It's been really hard for me.  I am not clingy by any means, but it's still nice to have him home... sitting by me in the living room, or hearing him breathe as he lays next to me in bed {now.  get your mind out of the gutter. ;) }  Or listening to him with our girls - their squeals of delight as he plays whatever they want him to.  They have even painted his toe nails before.  What a good dad.
When dad isn't home, our family isn't whole.  He is the piece to our unfinished puzzle, and we are dying to complete this puzzle.  But, sometimes life gets crazy and we get busy.  With work.  He works so very hard, and it's such a great quality to have.  But at the same time, I wish him to be home.  Soon.  It's only for a time... RIGHT?!
There is a reason my turnaround time is so long.  There is a reason I keep very strict business hours.  Because I know my husband will need to work late sometimes... or a lot of the time.  I can't just work all the time and have them care for themselves. That would not be fair, they need mom.  So, I am here.  When they need me, or when they don't.  I'm watching.  Because one day... they'll be all grown up, and as a mother, there's nothing worse than missing something.  Every milestone is cherished, remembered, never ever forgotten.
I want my kids to learn a good work ethic from their dad.  Because I don't think there's a better example of that.  My dad would also be a good example of that as well.
I want my kids to learn balance from me.  I don't mean balancing and juggling life and all it's insane activities.  I mean balance as in... there is no harm in walking away for a bit.  For example.  I have set business hours for myself.  And I stop when the time has come.  It will all be there for me tomorrow.

It seems a child's life is fleeting.  Gone in a blink.  And I don't want to miss it for the world.  I look forward to the people they will become, the lives they will lead, the people they will love.  So much ahead, but still so much right here right now.

I know... totally a random post.  Just lots of things on my heart right now.   And the above is just a fraction.  But, I am nodding off as I type this.  Best be going now.  :)  I will be back with a giveaway later in the day.